Chapter 112   - Extra CP (Zuo Zhen x Lu Xiuhe)-I don’t deserve to be a fan

Lu Xiuhe went home, took a bath, ignored Father Lu who was calling out to him, and turned to enter his room.

As soon as he lay down in his bed, his whole person sunk and became mired in the bedding.

“Already said that if you buy such a soft mattress, sooner or later your waist will get damaged …” He talked to himself for a long time before gradually losing his voice.

He picked up his cellphone and saw that the number of unread messages from the fan support group had already reached 99 +. He’d probably have to scroll through it all for a really long time to get through all of them.

He had already screened the group notifications, so the reason he was still getting notifications was because someone in the groupchat was @ing him.

[@Lulu, why aren’t you talking la?]

[Why has Zhenzhen still not posted anything on Weibo ? How about we let @Lulu ask around? Isn’t he in Manyang?]

[The officials haven’t released any information, so how can you just ask around ?]

Lu Xiuhe opened the keyboard, typed in two words, and then just stopped.

He had already been kicked out of the fandom, so what was he doing bouncing around in here?

Moreover, it was the main subject of the fandom who had kicked him out. That was probably the first time in thousands of years that something like this had happened in the entertainment industry. If such news got out, it would probably lead to extravagant scenes.

He thought so, but there was no joy on his face. Zuo Zhen’s words continuously kept floating in the sea of his thoughts, and he couldn’t shake them off.

Just as he closed the groupchat, a new message immediately popped up.

[Big Fan: Lulu, you there?]

He could pretend to not have seen the messages sent by other people, but Big Fan usually had important matters to talk about in the middle of the night. He hesitated and then replied—

[Here , what’s the matter?]

[Big Fan: The group chat @you so many times, why didn’t you appear?]

[Just took a bath, didn’t see it.]

[Big Fan: Oh, I just wanted to tell you that the models have arrived. You give me your home address, and when I get the models, I’ll mail one to you.]

Lu Xiuhe had even decided where he would put the model. His room was a typical college-boy room, it was horribly messy. Looking around, he could only put it next to the computer.

He subconsciously glanced over at the computer, and it took awhile before he could type out a reply.

[That …. I don’t want it anymore. You look around and see who wants it, and then give it to them .]

[Big Fan: ??]

Big Fan: Are you drinking? Are you drunk?]

[…… No, I’m at home.]

Lu Xiuhe typed slowly, rather listless.

[Um, I’m leaving the fandom, so I won’t be following you guys to chase after Zhenzhen anymore.]

[Big Fan: …. ]

[Big Fan: What’s your situation ? You’ve only been a fan for not too long, and you’re leaving the fandom already? Can I ask why?]

The speed with which the other side was replying was getting faster.

Although Zuo Zhen had a large number of fans, to the point where all the messages in the fan support group couldn’t be read, there were really very few male fans. The number of interesting and capable male fans like Lu Xiuhe could literally just be counted on their fingers.

Because he was chatting with a stranger, he opened up a lot, blindly saying whatever came to his mind.

[Nothing really. I did something that I need to apologize to Zhenzhen for. I’m guilty, and I don’t deserve to be a fan of Zhenzhen’s.]

[Big Fan: ….So what, you went over to another fandom? Going over to another fandom is actually nothing, it’s normal. Even if you were stanning two people, you still don’t have to leave the fandom ya.]

[Zhenzhen is so good that there’s no one else that I’d go over to another fandom for.]

[Big Fan: ? Then why do you suddenly want to leave the fandom? Zhenzhen is going to go solo soon. Have you seen his performance in “The Rivers and the Mountains”? Although it’s just a supporting role, his acting is really explosive. It can’t be compared with ordinary performances. Being his fan can’t be a wrong step …]

[Of course I have seen it. The way he delivered that quote was very powerful!]

[Big Fan: That’s right, that’s right. So how about you consider it again and not leave the fandom?]

Lu Xiuhe said internally—it’s not that I want to leave the fandom .

I want to be a fan of his .

But even if I regard him as an idol, he wants to fucking sleep with me !

Chasing after stars was too hard.

[Really leaving. In a month, I’m going to have to take an exam for my certificate, and there’s a pile of other matters I have to attend to that’s waiting for me. My hands are full. I still like him, it’s just that I’m leaving the fan support group. Sorry .]

The Big Fan tried to persuade him for a long time, but seeing that she really couldn’t persuade him to change his decision, she could only stop and finally, told him to study well and wished him good luck for his exams.

Lu Xiuhe connected his cellphone to the charger, pulled the quilt directly over the top of his head, closed his eyes, and dozed for awhile.

Then, after a moment, he suddenly lifted up his blankets, got up, and grabbed his phone.

[…… That model, you still mail it to me . I’ve thought about it, and I’m still not willing to let it go.]

——

Pz would return to Jincheng the very next day after the face-to-face meeting ended.

“Ge, you’re really not coming back with us?” Xu Min sat cross-legged beside Zuo Zhen and asked while playing with his cellphone.

He was the youngest in the group, and his family background wasn’t ordinary, so being an idol for him was just a hobby. In this group, which was rife with open strife and veiled struggles, he was the most peaceful one, so he was also the one in the group who had the best relationship with Zuo Zhen.

“Not going back.” Zuo Zhen took his medicine and said, “I took an annual leave for three days.”Because it was Lu Xiuhe who had made the first move and later, when asked by the dorm manager, he had admitted to it, so at two o’clock in the morning, it was Father Lu who came to pick him up from the school.

“Everything was fine, how could you just start fighting with someone…” Father Lu took a look in the rearview mirror, just wanting to lecture his son. However, he saw his face, which had been beaten purple and red, and his depressed expression, and he couldn’t make himself say any of the words he had wanted to scold him with.

Lu Xiuhe stared at his cellphone, strongly nursing his grievances.

This influencer account had made this post in the middle of the night, so the PR team for Peerless hadn’t come out yet. The post still hadn’t been deleted yet and had already been forwarded over 4000 times now. There were even a bunch of side accounts that had nothing better to do than to crazily @Zuo Zhen. They had even published the link to the post right under Zuo Zhen’s latest post, in fear that the hate wouldn’t reach him.

The fan support group was also in a furor right now.

[This influencer account is too unbridled ? After getting served so many papers by lawyers, they still dare to do this??]

[It’s okay. It’s the middle of the night, so not many people should have seen it.]

[It’s over…. I just used the query app to have a look, and Zhenzhen is looking at Weibo right now.]

It was so late. If it had been the company’s staff logging on, then that Weibo post would have already been torn down by the PR team.

…… It was probably Zuo Zhen who had logged in.

Zuo Zhen hadn’t been feeling well these days, and if he saw this kind of thing, he definitely wouldn’t feel any better.

Lu Xiuhe held his cellphone, fighting against himself in his heart.

If there was no one taking care of Zuo Zhen, then was he still running a fever, and if the fever continued on for too long, wouldn’t something go wrong with his head ?

What if… what if he sent over a message to ask?

Even if Zuo Zhen only replied to him with a period, he would still feel at ease looking at that period.

The injury at the corner of his mouth throbbed faintly. Lu Xiuhe hissed, and then bashfully opened up WeChat.

“The stuff on Weibo is just antis stirring up shit. Your fans will believe you. Don’t worry.”

Lu Xiuhe finished typing this line, stared at it for a long time, then deleted it.

“Are you on Weibo?”

Delete.

“Are you better?”

Delete.

“Zuo Zhen, you’re fine ?”

That’s it!

Lu Xiuhe gritted his teeth and clicked send. The moment the message was sent out, his heart beat very fast.

But immediately after, the little excitement he was expecting from getting a reply was snuffed out, without even a spark of it remaining.

[Z has turned on friend verification. You are not his (her) friend yet.]

Lu Xiuhe froze and stared at his cellphone for a long time, completely unable to react to it.

He… had been blacklisted?

He took a deep breath and quickly opened QQ to try and find Zuo Zhen in his friend’s list.

He wasn’t there.

He wasn’t in his recent contacts, his friend list, and wasn’t popping up even when he searched for his account.

Even his QQ had been deleted?

It seemed as if Lu Xiuhe had been heavily punched by someone and then pushed to the bottom of a cliff. He held his cellphone tightly and wasn’t able to return to his senses for a long time.

Then what about their chat records from the past few months?

…… Were they also gone? All gone?

Just now, when he had been fighting with Lao San, he had gotten punched several times. Now, that pain finally welled up, irritating his head and making it ache.

It was at this moment that he really understood that Zuo Zhen was determined to completely disappear from his life.

No wonder Zuo Zhen had made this decision, it had been him who had abandoned the other person first.

Very good.

Lu Xiuhe locked the screen of his cellphone, tightly clenched it in his hand, looked out of the window at one of the fleeting street lights, and suddenly felt unwell from head to toe.

He felt that his being had incarnated into a yellow lotus, and his bitterness could spread up to three miles away.

It shouldn’t be this way .

It was he who didn’t want to have anything else to do with Zuo Zhen. Regarding Zuo Zhen’s decision to give up, he should be happy about it, and if not that, he should at least feel relieved.

…… However he was, he shouldn’t be like this at least.

While driving, Father Lu kept wanting to speak, but then kept hesisting as well, and this continued for a long time. Finally, they stopped at a red light, so he turned around and asked, “Does your face hurt…. He Zi? What’s going on with you? Don’t feel good?”

He just saw Lu Xiuhe slump forward and bury his face in his palms.

He shook his head. “It’s fine, I’m just… it hurts a little.”

Father Lu asked anxiously, “Aiya, who told you to go provoke others, serves you right to be beaten like this.”

“He cursed out my partner.” Lu Xiuhe said, “I couldn’t stand it.”

“That’s really intolerable…” In the middle of the conversation, Father Lu stopped and asked, “Wait a minute, your partner? When did you get a partner? How old are they? Are they your classmate? What are they like? Why didn’t you bring them back for us to take a look at?”

“I can’t bring them back.” Lu Xiuhe didn’t cry. Even if he was suffering, it was unmanly to cry after all. He sat up straight. “We split up.”

Father Lu was stunned. “Why?”

Not being able to be honest, Lu Xiuhe just said, “That person was too good, I don’t deserve them.”

Father Lu’s expression was complicated, and he thought that his son must have been beaten until he had gone silly. After a long silence, he nodded. “Yes. You can’t even win a fight, so I can see why you don’t deserve them.”

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Juurensha: ….I guess LXH takes after his dad. Noooo LXH don’t lose heart, I feel like ZZ hasn’t quite given up on you yet based on what he told his group member!magic

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