side story 8: gu yu’s inner monologue

i’m gu yi, 20 years old this year, and i was born into the gu family, one of the top families in country M.

even though i was born into a family where there are endless open and secret conflicts like the gu family, before the age of ten, because of my grandfather’s love and my parents ‘protection, i have only heard about the evil of human nature from others and have never experienced it personally.

I’m the eldest grandson of the Gu family. I’ve been talented since I was young. In addition, I was the future successor of the Gu family and was favored by my grandfather. The people under me never dared to neglect me. My uncles and aunts were also very polite to me.

Before the age of ten, my life could be described as carefree.

But all of this changed when I was ten.

It was my tenth birthday, and the sun rose in the morning. It was a good day. However, in the afternoon, the sky suddenly darkened, dark clouds gathered, a strong wind blew, and it began to rain heavily.

Second uncle refused to accept grandfather’s decision for my father to take over the Gu family, so he joined forces with third uncle and fifth uncle to create an internal strife on my birthday. It happened so suddenly that my parents were caught off guard. They were immersed in the joy of celebrating my birthday and used their bodies to help me block many bullets.

When I was rescued by my grandfather’s people, I saw my parents fall with my own eyes. Their eyes were open as they lay in a pool of blood.

In order to send me out of the Gu family safely, my grandfather also lost his life in a storm of bullets. when he was out of breath, he was still worried about me, who was only ten years old, and held my hand tightly, unwilling to close his eyes.

after that, fourth uncle and sixth uncle brought people to find me and take me away.

He chased them all the way.

On the way, fourth uncle betrayed me and sixth uncle lost his life to protect me.

after that, second grandpa and aunt came to find me.

from them, i learned that second grandma and the other members of the second branch were all dead.

As we were running for our lives, second Grandpa died and youngest aunt was seriously injured.

Then I was saved by someone.

he had been hiding under that person’s hands for four years.

at that time, i didn’t know who saved me. later on, i found out that it was the third young master of the yu family in sea city, yu xi, who had a great feud with second uncle.

By the fourth year, my traces were discovered by second uncle’s men.

It might be Yu Xi who disclosed my whereabouts on purpose.

Yu Xi and the Gu family have great enmity, and he would not have any pity for the Gu family. He saved me only so that I could deal with second uncle when I grew up.

but it doesn’t matter, i don’t care.

he saved my life, and in the next few years, no matter what skills i wanted to learn, he would arrange it for me. i’m very grateful to him.

i’ve wanted to end this life countless times, but i’m not willing.

i want revenge!

Revenge is my only motivation to live!

i don’t care how yu xi schemes against me, but i have a higher chance of winning if i cooperate with yu xi.

yuxi wanted to save my life after all, so when i was escaping from M nation to a small county in hua nation, yuxi secretly sent people to protect me.

However, second uncle was bent on killing me and did not hesitate to send fifth uncle to personally chase after me. Yu Xi was busy creating trouble for second uncle and did not personally follow and protect me.

in the end, i couldn’t win, and the person sent by yuxi got separated from me.

i confronted fifth uncle and the twenty people he brought with him.

Perhaps it was because I was talented that I killed all of them, including my fifth uncle! I’ve already forgotten how I managed to escape into that forest. When I woke up, I was already there.

i was heavily injured and couldn’t move. i also had a high fever due to the inflammation of my wounds. i was hanging on to my last breath. there was no one around me, and i didn’t have any communication tools with me.

i almost thought i was going to die in that mountain.

it’s just a life. if it’s gone, it’s gone. i don’t really care. but i’ve lived for so long just for revenge. i’m not willing to die without revenge.

it was a little girl who gave me hope.

He had thought that she was just a country girl who would be timid, but would not leave her in the lurch.

But I didn’t expect her to be completely different from what I thought.

When she saw that I was covered in blood and on the verge of death, not only was she not frightened, but she also calmly glanced at me and was about to leave.

i was undoubtedly shocked.

but the situation at the time didn’t allow me to think too much. i didn’t want to die, so i could only ask her for help.

Fortunately, while I was running for my life, I still vaguely remembered to save my life. I saw a precious medicinal herb that I had some impression of and picked it.

Seeing that the girl’s basket was full of medicinal herbs, he thought of an idea in a hurry and suggested using the medicinal herbs in his hands as an exchange. The girl seemed to be a little tempted, but she didn’t agree immediately. She only agreed when I said that I only wanted her to help me make an emergency call.

after the emergency call, she left without waiting for the ambulance to arrive. it was as if she was not worried about whether i could survive until the medical staff arrived.

But I’m still very grateful to her.

without her call, i would have really died.

When I woke up in the hospital, I saw seventh uncle.

seventh uncle had gone out to study in his early years and had a very low sense of existence in the gu family. when second uncle got rid of the other members of the gu family, he didn’t count him in. or perhaps second uncle wanwan also wanted to get rid of seventh uncle, but she didn’t expect seventh uncle to be so capable after being away for so many years. it was impossible to get rid of him.

it was only after i woke up in the hospital and saw seventh uncle that i realized he wasn’t as simple as he seemed.

Seventh uncle did not want to get involved in the Gu family’s fight. It was second uncle who kept thinking about him and was afraid that he would threaten his position in the Gu family. He tried to get rid of him, which angered seventh uncle.

i followed seventh uncle back to the gu residence.

I’m the rightful heir of the Gu family. After second uncle took power, he acted violently and offended many people. When I returned to the Gu family, there were many people who supported me. with the help of seventh uncle and yu xi, after three years, i finally removed all of second uncle’s power and took his life with my own hands.

Of course, I won’t let second uncle die so easily.

second uncle was tortured for three whole months before he finally stopped breathing.

because of this incident, the entire gu family was intimidated and i was able to gain a firm foothold in the gu family.

after another year and a half, i followed my grandfather’s last words and revived the gu family, allowing the gu family, which had been almost destroyed by second uncle, to return to its former glory.

everything was perfect.

except for me.

I’ve avenged myself and the Gu family has been revived. I suddenly can’t find the motivation to live. After being muddleheaded for a month, I thought of the little girl who saved me in the mountain forest in the countryside many years ago.

i’ve actually almost forgotten about her.

originally, i just wanted to find her to repay her for saving my life that year, but i sent people to investigate for a whole month without finding any information about that little girl. i suddenly became interested in her.

he sent more people to investigate.

He wouldn’t have known if he hadn’t checked, but once he did, he was really surprised!

It turned out that she wasn’t a little girl from the countryside, but the Pearl of the Shi family in the capital!

after a careful investigation, he found that she was a very special person. in order to not be arranged a marriage by her family, she gave up her status as a pampered young lady and fell out with her family. she lived alone in the countryside for many years.

if it was any other young lady who had been living in luxury since young, she probably wouldn’t be able to live in luxurious clothes like her, able to handle rough linen clothes with ease.

He had never seen someone like her.

he was even more interested in her now.

when he learned that she had been admitted to haicheng university, he had disguised himself as a freshman and gone to haicheng.

he had wanted to get closer to her step by step, but he didn’t expect someone to beat him to it.

The capital’s rumored fifth Lord Jiang was said to have been recuperating after the car accident, but very few people knew where he was recuperating. This naturally included him, who had never come into contact with the fifth Lord.

it turned out that the jiang family’s fifth lord was recuperating in the jiang family of sea city!

at first, he had thought that jiang sheng, the young master of the jiang family of sea city, was the only obstacle in his way of getting close to shi yan. later, he found out that jiang sheng was nothing at all. the real obstacle was the jiang the fifth!

the fifth lord jiang was not jiang cheng.

he had to be more cautious.

He had thought that Shi Yan, who was in love, was not as cold-blooded as she had been in the past and would be easy to get along with. He had planned to approach her slowly as a classmate, but he didn’t know that she was only an exception to the fifth Lord.

She was still as cold-blooded, indifferent, and unapproachable as she had been in the past. The Jiang family’s fifth Lord also valued her greatly and guarded her strictly. He simply couldn’t find an opportunity to get close to her.

it wasn’t easy for her to find out that she lived in an apartment building near the school, so she asked gu yi, who owed the gu family a favor, to help her get an apartment in the vicinity. however, when she was about to move in, she found out that she was living with the fifth master jiang there.

He gave up on the idea of moving in.

Since they lived in the same neighborhood, he couldn’t guarantee that fifth Lord Jiang wouldn’t find out his identity.

he had to be more cautious.

He couldn’t tell what kind of feelings he had for Shi Yan.

however, he was very clear that it was not a relationship between a man and a woman. when he had planned a car accident and officially met shi yan, he had seen the bruises on her neck caused by fifth lord jiang. other than being slightly surprised, he did not feel much.

however, he still didn’t want to let her go, because this was the only thing he was interested in right now. other than this, he didn’t know what meaning he had left in life.

He had lived in seclusion in Haicheng for many years. No matter how many people he had sent to look for her, he was unwilling to return to the Gu family. His aunt had warned him not to touch Shi Yan. Jiang Shasha, who had some dealings with him and worked with him on his way to revenge, also came to find him.

His aunt thought that he would harm Shi Yan, and Jiang Shasha thought that he liked Shi Yan’s attempt to snatch her away from the fifth Lord.

in fact, it was neither.

it was true that he wanted to snatch her away, but he didn’t like her. No matter what, he owed her a life-saving grace. It was not too much to invite her to the Gu family as a guest for a few days, right?

However, the fifth Lord Jiang was too tightly guarded, and he couldn’t find an opportunity at all.

It was precisely because fifth Lord Jiang and all the other parties were so protective of Shi Yan and he knew that Shi Yan was the master behind the rosy clouds of the Green City that his competitiveness had been aroused.

originally, he had only wanted to invite her to the gu family as a guest, but now he wanted to snatch her away.

with the protection of fifth lord jiang and the shi family, and shi yan’s own ability, he knew that if he didn’t take action now, his chances would only be smaller.

Therefore, he hinted to his classmates who had a good relationship with him to travel to Shi Yan’s roommate’s hometown and set up a chance encounter with Shi Yan’s roommate.

He knew that some of his classmates were interested in Shi Yan’s roommate, so he suggested that Shi Yan’s roommate should go on a trip with a few friends. They came to the small town where Shi Yan had lived for many years and met by chance.

he had wanted to take the opportunity to abduct shi yan, but he didn’t expect that shi yan had already guessed his identity and was on guard.

At that time, he was surprised.

he had come up with this idea on the spur of the moment, and he hadn’t seen shi yan and the fifth lord make any moves or even show the slightest trace of defense. he had thought that they hadn’t noticed anything.

he didn’t expect them to be prepared.

In fact, he might be able to take Shi Yan away if he tried.

But in the end, he did not do so.

he wasn’t a person who would return kindness with ingratitude, so he didn’t want to hurt shi yan. he had thought about threatening shi yan with the others. However, he knew that if he really did that, he and Shi Yan would only be mortal enemies. There was no need for that.

Then, without doing anything, he was taken away by the fifth Lord Jiang’s men.

The Jiang family’s fifth Lord was not a kind person. If he had disobeyed in that situation, the Jiang family’s fifth Lord would have most likely spared his life on the spot.

It didn’t matter if he died or not, but he was unwilling to die in such a cowardly manner in front of Shi Yan.

as expected of the fifth lord jiang. in the month that he had fallen into the fifth lord’s hands, he had truly experienced what it was like to be better off dead than alive.

he had wanted to die, but his aunt had come to see him and heard that jiang shasha, who wasn’t very close to him, had sacrificed everything to save him.

he suddenly didn’t want to die that much.

the gu family had suffered heavy losses because of him, and everyone in the gu family had begun to have opinions of him.

he didn’t care.

but in the face of seventh uncle’s reprimand, he actually felt a little guilty.

then, he told seventh uncle that he was not suitable to be the head of the gu family and wanted to hand the gu family over to seventh uncle. however, seventh uncle did not care about the gu family at all.

he was the one who had gone crazy again and again. he knew that he was no match for them, but he still overestimated himself and provoked shi yan and the fifth lord jiang. seventh uncle was worried that he would really lose his life, so he warned him again and suggested for the first time that he should see a psychiatrist.

Not long after that, his aunt also called him and asked him to see a psychiatrist.

Of course, he knew that he had a psychological problem.

before he was ten years old, he was as naïve as he could be. however, when he was ten years old, he had watched his relatives die one after another in front of him. it would be strange if he was mentally normal.

But he didn’t want to cure it.

he didn’t think it was an illness. moreover, he wanted to remember the truest feeling in his heart when he saw his family die one by one in front of his eyes.

he didn’t object to jiang shasha staying with him on the grounds that he owed her a favor.

In reality, he had many ways to return Jiang Shasha’s favor, but he didn’t.

To this day, Jiang Shasha was the only person who could be by his side without holding back.

he was crazy, and jiang shasha was no better.

he had indeed gone crazy. time and time again, he had tried to run to the capital and snatch her away.

However, Shi Yan’s ability was far greater than he had imagined.

It was already very difficult to deal with the fifth Lord, but Shi Yan was also a figure who was not inferior to the fifth Lord.

He could go crazy and risk his life, but he didn’t want Jiang Shasha, the only person who was willing to stay by his side, to lose her life with him.

He dispelled the idea of snatching her away.

well, actually, he couldn’t.

When seventh uncle suggested for him to go out and relax, he agreed.

He probably still had some conscience left in him, so he didn’t want Jiang Shasha to become even crazier under his leadership.

When he had asked Jiang Shasha if she wanted to leave with him, it wasn’t because he pitied her or because he had suddenly fallen for her.

he probably still had some conscience, but not much.

he was selfish. he had asked jiang shasha if she wanted to go with him because he didn’t want to be alone.

as for whether he would become less selfish in the future and whether his relationship with jiang shasha would change, that would be a matter for the future.

He was still a selfish madman and only cared about the present.